lolololoolol i cannot take a good picture right meow but wutevs
LOOK AT US
WE ARE SO CUTE
WE ARE GLOWINGGGGGGGGGGG
in a perfect world guys dont last long during blow jobs
but do in bed
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i love you. i also think we are both crazy but you haven’t come to terms with it. it’s okay. or am i projecting my craziness on to you? oh my god……. i’m becoming my dad. this is not good. abort abort. omg no one will ever see this. if anyone were to read this, they would think i’m crazy. but it’s okay. i wonder how much crazy thinking can do psychologically to a person. like even if it’s not real, but you tell yourself insane stuff all the time; how much does that really affect your reality? or is it just your perception being warped over time… as the thinking goes on. i guess no one will ever know, there is no real way to prove it. the safest bet would be to not think this at all. but, from my experience with extreme crazy thinking, it doesn’t really work. if i picture a knife going through the back of my neck, it doesn’t happen, despite my paranoia creeping on my every move. and every time i get in a car, i always imagine me getting into a car accident. but it never happens. but i feel like it is inevitable that it will happen, like i think a lot of people get into car crashes, from minor to major ones. i hope it’s a little one. or none at all. but again….. inevitable. i think there honestly might be something wrong with my mind. or… is this other people drilling that into my brain through jokes? and me eventually believing it. it’s the same concept as bullying. or even teasing. teasing would be a better example, say kids tease you that you are dumb, even though you aren’t; you eventually start to believe it, regardless of accuracy. so i guess i want to know what really affects reality, and what really affects just your perception. and if it does affect your perception, does that just stop at your thinking, or does it follow through to your reality? the only way i feel i could test this is what i have been doing, which will make me crazy. and who trusts a crazy person? not me. i won’t even trust my own judgement. i don’t even right now. that’s not good… i should trust my judgement. it’s what everyone says, especially before you take a test. i need to become reliant on my own knowledge and mind. i need to trust it. i need to use it. i should try to become more happy and do things that i love more. because i find that i am way more happy that way. way more, and things happen in much better ways. i also don’t think about stuff like this. the next couple of months will be long. sat’s and canyon fusion tryouts. i’m totally questioning my take on dance now that we are doing this whole modern unit. why the fuck am i so awkward and sucky at it? that is not okay, i thought i liked it and that is what we are doing for the choreography project. i may have to suggest changes. because kaitlin doesn’t look too good doing it either and madison is just average at it. we aren’t going to get in the show looking how we do when we learn modern combinations. omg i just spelled you’re as your and then directly after i spelled your as you’re. what the fuck is wrong with me….. why. omg, and this was via facebook not on here. i know this. why am i acting like i am gonna show this to people, LOL. not gonna happen. i’m gonna read all this and decide how crazy how i sound. i am crazy. and okay. also, deca. like what the fuck is this shit doing for me? we don’t learn squat in meetings, and then these bogus competitions are thrust upon us without any knowledge whatsoever. like what is that bullshit? i would like to know what you need to know to become successful in deca. like i want to LEARN. if i were to learn everything i was supposed to, i would be all for this club. but we do not. so i am not sure if i want to stick around and see what we will learn. eh, but the fun trips are coming up. and tara is in there with me, which is important since we hardly see eachother now and it creates quality friend time. and also other smart people are in there, i can borrow their knowledge…. just as long as it doesn’t become tooooooo expensive. fuq dat. i am so dumb compared to you. :( i don’t like that, i want to be equals. even though we are, i want to feel like we are. i hate that i even think that. i shouldn’t think that you are overly better than me, that’s not how i am supposed to think. you don’t even want me to think that, so why do i? ugh :( my boyfriend thinks i’m crazy. it’s true. i am trying to tell him to tell me i’m not. loloolololol why am i making him lie. i feel like this is a totally different person……………….. weird. this is my real self i think. AWESOME :D why am i not this way to other people then? lol i totally feel at ease right now. probably because of lack of judgement. i wonder if everyone thinks they’re crazy. but they just don’t wanna admit it. or, they are crazy but they don’t even know it. or, just thinking all of this MAKES you crazy, which is why i would be the only one that i know of being crazy. unless you went back to the whole “not admitting it” thing. but if i were to admit it, which i have, then they would automatically be more confident with admitting it to me. that’s common, i test that all the time. i say embarrassing things, and then i found out everyone does the same thing!! and they would have never said it if i didn’t. but sadly, that is not the case here. I NEED TO STOP THINKING THIS WAY LOL. I THINK I AM LITERALLY WORRYING MY BOYFRIEND. OMG THIS IS NOT GOOD. WHY. LOL WHY AM I LIKE JOKING BUT NOT REALLY. AM I JOKING? I CANNOT TELL ANYMORE. WHAT IS THIS. AM I JUST. I AM NORMAL. I THINK. OKAY. THIS IS HARD. UGH.
i want answers.
or if strong happy feelings tend to string along with strong bad feelings.
I HAVEN’T SEEN YOU ON MY DASH IN SUCH A LONG TIME AKJSLGHAER (I’ve never really talked to you except for that one time “Cyberbully” was on abc family but yeah anyway HI)
OMG YEAH I KNOW I HAVE BEEN AWAY LOLOLOLOLOL HELLO HOW HAVE YOU BEEN I NEED AN OPINION WHICH PICTURE IS BETTER THAT ONE THAT YOU COMMENTED ON OR THE ONE BEFORE THAT HAHA
HELLO AGAIN